9 months later…

I am sure that was film… So 2nd of December marked 9 months since the day my world fell apart and I’m now 17 radiotherapy session in and finish treatment on 21st December.

So not going to lie the side effects my radiologist listed to me 4 weeks ago meant a very sleepless night before starting radiotherapy and the deep dark gloom feeling in my tummy all morning waiting for my appt. I’ve spent 9 months being prodded and poked why should this be any different.

As I said before because my cancer was on the left side in order to protect my heart I needed to be able to hold my breath for 20 second stints to inflate my lungs and move my heart out of the firing line. So I lie down in the delightful contraption with my arms above my head and I can’t move a muscle the radiologist then spends about 15 minutes measuring and scanning making sure the marks line up and I can effectively hold my breath. They measure anterior and posterior and depth.

If the scan is all good I can move on to be zapped. So 2 lots of 20 seconds then it’s done… I don’t feel anything!! I have to use E45 twice a day to keep my skin healthy. I’ve now been given flamogel and my left side has gone bright red with a rash and my nerves under my arms have gone back to how they were post surgery. I have some cording under my arm which is stretch muscles causing pain and restrictions so twice a day flamogel, twice a day E45, arm exercises and a tennis ball to hand to massage under my arm.

On my last radiotherapy appt I also had a nurse review and she said everything looked as it should at this stage no concerns continue what I’m doing and for 2 weeks after I’ve finished radiotherapy. I’ve been referred to a wellbeing session in February which is kind of a mental. And emotional catch up for me. I have no idea what I’m going to feel after Christmas when treatment has finished and the festitivities so is good to know I have somewhere i can turn if I start to struggle.

So with Christmas around the corner girls have finished school and nursery. I am feeling very festive and very excited for the big day watching the girls open their presents and following the magical. Journey of Christmas with them. Favourite time of year….